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[18 Nov 2009|11:20pm] |
At some point, you've got to be selfish and choose what benefits you the most. Eliminating anything or anyone that can make you lose control of yourself, make you weak. You've got to play your cards right and pull out when you feel you're slipping ... relying and becoming too dependent on the material... Live the good moments, and NEVER make room for the bad even if they may be just what you need to feel alive.
In this world, no one needs anyone. We were born with nothing, and we shall leave with nothing.
You're fooled by commercialized bullshit if you believe that the material (objects, people...etc) will make you happy. It will, but it will also be the ONE THING that can break you down. Make you weak. Make you dependent.
And Disney (and happily ever afters), and hallmark (and happily ever after) and romance and love, and lust and pride and joy and sadness ...
They're not real.
They're subjective realities, affirmed by society and further defined by the individual.
Fall into that trap, and you'll be dependent ... you'll be weak. Because, people let you down. Always.
No one needs anyone.
It's nice to have someone, but really, no one NEEDS anyone.
As Tyler Durden (Fight Club) said, "It's only after you've lost everything, that you're free to do anything"
xx lish
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[18 Nov 2009|12:33pm] |
I HATE SINGAPORE WEATHER I HATE SINGAPORE WEATHER I HATE SINGAPORE WEATHER
I HATE THE DULL UN-BLUE-ISH SKIES, I HATE THE LACK OF SCENARY, I HATE THE LACK OF WIND, I HATE THE HUMIDITY, I HATE THE POLLUTED AIR.
MAKING ME SICK, SICK, SICK, SICK.
Grr.
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[13 Nov 2009|12:32am] |
Sometimes, there's only so much you can take till you reach your breaking point.
It doesn't even have to be over something big, something so small and insignificant can push you past that line.
When you realize that you don't deserve to be shouted at for no reason.
When you realize why you're putting up with that.
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[12 Nov 2009|12:21am] |
Season 3 of The Hills is ACTUALLY quite entertaining and not totally painful to watch. lol.
Love Lauren Conrad, Audrina and Whitney! + Brody
Heidi and Spencer's fights are SO funny.
"You call it relationship vacation, anyone else on planet earth calls it breaking up."
"Who the hell takes a 'vacation' from a relationship?"
Made me laugh.
AHAHAHAHHAHA.
Hello,
Hello,
Hello.
Let's make some music, make some money, find some models for wives.
I'll move to Paris, shoot some heroin, and fuck with the stars.
You man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars.
This is our decision, to live fast and die young.
We've got the vision, now let's have some fun.
There's really nothing, nothing we can do
Love must be forgotten, life can always start up anew.
The models will have children, we'll get a divorce
We'll find some more models, everything must run it's course.
We'll choke on our vomit and that will be the end
We were fated to pretend
To pretend
We're fated to pretend
To pretend
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[03 Nov 2009|02:59am] |
KNNBCCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCB! TICKETS NOW GOING AT $50AUD I BOUGHT THEM AT $200AUD OKAY????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
should have known not to be so kiasu. she can't manage two nights in Perth. even beyonce only did 1 night.
DAMN ANGRYYYYYYYYY!!! WITH KYER'S TICKETS AND MY TICKETS PRICES COMBINED, WE COULD HAVE BOUGHT 8 TICKETS .. WHICH MEANS, INVITED YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU AND YOU FOR FREE. CBCBCBCBCBCBCBCB.
This is worse than any breakup i've ever gone through.
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[01 Nov 2009|08:58pm] |
OH EM GEE!!!!!
SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!
When i get my cat (Princess Cleopetra Shinamitzu a.k.a. Cleopy) ...
She MUST look like that. heheheh.
![persian-cat-proud-showcat[1]](http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2621/4064160562_8735d49708.jpg)
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[31 Oct 2009|04:03am] |
Take a look at yourself in the mirror,
are you the person you want to be?
Or is there someone else you were meant to be,
the person you should have been,
but fell short of.
Is someone telling you,
you can't or you won't?
Because, you can.
Believe that dreams come true everyday,
Because, they do.
Sometimes,
happiness doesn't come from money, from fame or power.
Sometimes,
happiness comes from the good friends and family,
and from the quiet nobility of leading a good life.
Believe that dreams come true everyday,
because they do.
So take a look at yourself in that mirror,
and remind yourself to be happy.
You deserve to be.
Believe that.
And believe that dreams come true everyday,
Because they do.
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[27 Oct 2009|03:01am] |
I really, really, really, want these 3 items now.
# Blackberry Javelin (i think i got this covered, its not like ANYONE will get me that anyway. except people who love me the most... my family hee hee 21st, ahem)
# YSL ELLE
# Fujifilm Instax 200
Since polaroids have died, this is the next best thing. Anyone knows if this is on sale in Singapore? PLS PLS PLS let me know, or else i might just get it here.
Er, and theres nothing else i want actually. OOOO! Wait, one of those mini-laptops! Theyre only around $300... hahahaha
And i have a feeling ... i will just end up buying these items by myself... because im just too impatient to wait and these are essentials.
LOL.
Self-reliance, baby. Self-reliance.
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OMGOMGOMGOMG.
i am so diggin Ashley Tisdale as a brunette!!!! Much better!
HAHAH OMG funny.
"im the blonde one, and she goes like, OH.MY.GOD. zahara's loves your outfits"
AHHAHAHAHAHA
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[23 Oct 2009|03:02am] |
My essay is pure genius, pure genius, pure genius!
I can't even believe myself.
I'd be surprised if i don't nail a Distinction, at least, for it.
I should have a sidejob of ghost writing essays for lazy/stupid people. $200 for a Credit, +$100 for a distinction. Yea, i'm cheap (and integrity-less)
My success rate is currently 90% for distinctions this semester. And the only time that has failed wasn't even my fault. (cough. group work. cough) Price fluctuates according to that statistic.
HA HA.
Im kiddin ah. I don't ghost-write. Not still AFTER i graduate anyway. hahahaha. I joke.
Yay.
Finally done with it.
30%.
Whoop whoop. I can retire the night now.
Anyways,
watch this.
White girl's chinese is better than mine yo. Shame. I can't even sing a single chinese song and that.... i blame on my mean-ass chinese tutors in school who always made me so self-conscious with my chinese pronounciation! BOO YOU!
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[20 Oct 2009|04:26am] |
I actually am growing to like Perth - alot.
So much so, i don't even wana stop studying just so i can remain here. Next semester's my final semester, and i don't want to leave. It'll pass all too soon.
I haven't even experienced what i have the potential to experience, and that saddens me.
There's just so much more to life that i've yet to experience from an overseas education.
What about the dorm parties?
What about cooking?
What about paying rent?
What about having a car?
What about work?
What about shifting house and living with your friends? (without a guardian)
Different way of life?
Different cultures?
Currently, i'm in 'homestay', which basically means you get meals 24/7 prepared for you in a house. The pros to that, is that you don't have to cook, pay bills... etc
Cons, you live with the owners of the house.
Which basically, SUCKS.
No house parties, no boys over, no nothing.
Sucky sucky suck.
If i take my masters, i could move out... get my own place with my friends... do whatever we want, get my license, drive......
You know, there's just SO much to do.
So much to experience.
I've been trying to maximise my experiences here... broadening my horizons... you know.. getting to learn about new cultures.... mixing with different kinds of people... different cultures... different perspectives.... trying different things... you only live once.... opportunity only comes knocking.. once.. twice... then its gone....
But somehow, i feel that it isnt enough. I haven't soaked it all in yet.
Do you sometimes feel as if you've SO much to give to the world... so much MORE you can do... make your life that much more worthwhile.....
but because, sometimes ... fallen circumstances in your life limit you...... to achieve....
be it,
money, gender, sex, race, culture, ethnicity, orientation, language, distance, intellect, personality....etc
You just feel that you've SO much more to offer.... (or receive)
That's what i am feeling now.
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Hayden Panettiere's tattoo is major nice.
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| TATTOO |
[17 Oct 2009|08:09pm] |
WHOOP WHOOP!!!
Went down to Subiaco today to get my tattoo appointment locked in.
The dude sketched up a design and did a fitting.
LOOKS SIIIICCCCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE IT.
Don't have the exact fonts on my computer, so i just made a rough look-alike sketch.....
Except that i am going to have gradiented shading on the first letter and bold black for the rest....
It means "Unconquerable" in latin and is the title of William E. Henley's poem.
Quite happy i didnt get the verse i wanted to get initially, don't think it'd look nice cos i dont have the body space for it.
So excited....
Come soon 9th Nov!!!!
I HATE SUMMER. I HATE SUMMER. I HATE SUMMER. I HATE SUMMER WEATHER. ARGGHHHH. 37DEGREES ARE U KIDDING ME.....
THANK GOD its cold monday again at 20degrees.
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[13 Oct 2009|04:08am] |
GODSKITCHEN WAS HELL AWESOMMEEEE........ STELLAR PERFORMANCE BY COSMIC GATE!!!!!! Was probably one of THE BEST BEST BEST partying nights out i've ever had....... Had so much fun didnt even take much pictures... only had 3 on my camera ):
Everyone was just damn tripppy and the music was .... off the roof.
Slept at 9am the next mroning cos i was still so fidgety.... couldnt get to bed.
And woke up with unexplainable bruises, don't know where they came from. Probably from 'play' boxing and swinging on the bars with fiona when we were all high. Muay Thai vs. Boxing style ahahhahaha
Unexplainable big bruise
Nigel
Fiona
Steve
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[08 Oct 2009|11:26pm] |
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"Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above."
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[07 Oct 2009|04:43pm] |
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!! OMG AHAHAHAAHHA PERVERTIC AHHAHAHAAH (Just for laughs-boobs)
SO EXICTED TO GET !!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!!!
Due to a lack of body "surface area" after a few consults...... i decided to shorten my tattoo by over 80% from a verse to....
the the title of the poem i initially wanted to get....,
"Invictus" (latin for unconquerable) on the side of my ribs.
SO STOKED. Can't friggin wait to get it done. My 21st birthday present to myself! GOin down sometime next week to confirm my booking... will get it done in nov when kyer's over right after my exams!!! HEHEHHEHEE.
Now im just deciding on fonts.
Should i go for something more.... cursive and fancy (design), or leave it as something more classic? HMMM....
By fancy fonts... i mean something like.... THIS
OR
or something more... classic like....
OR
The positioning will roughly be something like Shenae Grimes's tattoo.... just a little bit higher and in slightly bigger font
HMMMM.
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| For You |
[04 Oct 2009|08:46pm] |
I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
u got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
Cause you came around
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WAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAH.
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| PARKLIFE |
[29 Sep 2009|01:46pm] |
edit//
Still recovering from the aftermath - that i didn't do anything today. Just talked to baby.
I think its come to a point where like, i don't even want to party anymore... because being at home with someone you love is waaayyy better.
But with that said, a little party now and then isn't going to kill you either.
Parklife was AMAZINGGG! Well, at least the first half of it.... the end was just spent being stoned. Too tired. Imagine being on you feet for almost 10 hours straight and only having udon noodles for lunch that day.
Went to Coxxy's afters at a friends private apartment in the city... was not too bad, but hmm....
Oh yeah, but first....
Lar's birthday
 
love all these when the sun sets...so nice :D
Parklife
Hologram entry ticket! SO NICE!
ahahahahaha
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On another note, don't think ill be doing my internship in Singapore anymore. Think i shall do it in Australia.
Quite excited to go corporate.
But i think it would really suck without a car. Imagine taking public transport to work everyday. Ick. No way.
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[23 Sep 2009|12:33am] |
Should i stay in Australia to get my Masters?
If i am, i would probably be transferring to UWA
Hmmm... That'll be another 2 years.
I really kind of like moving around. Like, its so great not to remain in a place/country for a long period of time, i think. I like staying somewhere and leaving when it gets shitty/boring/depressing and taking myself elsewhere. Didn't think it'd be something i'd enjoy cos i've always thought i was more tailored for permanence... but... i like it. it's great.
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[20 Sep 2009|02:52am] |
Hello everyone, watch
ITS THE BEST SHOW IVE WATCHED THIS YEAR. (Better than The Ugly Truth, but its kind of not on the same wavelength just cos one is a chick flick and the other is purely satirical...)
I made S 30mins late for his work cos i told him that the show was 1h49mins when it was actually 149mins=2hoursish....
LOL! im so bad with numbers!
SO ANYWAYS...
i've discovered a new game .... KARAOKE PARTY!
and i recommended it to Lennise ahahahhahaha
and i've been playing it....
Its basically like this 'karaoke website' which functions exactly like a karaoke system - just that its online. You can play with your friends cos there's a scoreboard.
The only thing that sucks about it is that, you need a microphone. If you don't have one it gets really hard to detect the sound and youve to go REALLY REALLY close to your speakers (thereby affecting your score). I found this out after the first round.
SO FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT SAKE... i recorded my gameplay cos i was so bored and had nothing to do after i got back from the movies....... singing Jason Mraz's I'm Yours
Warning: LISTEN AT YOUR OWN RISK (but in my defence i really don't think i am THAT bad hahahah)
My score was 5000 ish i think.
x
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[17 Sep 2009|08:12pm] |
OMG!!!! is H I L A R I O U S !!!!
I'm watching Season 3 now i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!!!
"Tell your sister she looks sexy on television"
"Do you know what Naomi is spelled backwards? imoan."
"You fucked my sister???!!!!!"
WAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
NAWWWWWWWWWWWWW so cute .......... i want a kitty like that!
and if you haven't already used the "gym-ball" USE IT!!!!!
its the bomb.
I did half the work i usuallly do on situps... today, my abdominals are mad aching... you can feel the tightness!
AWESOME. can't believe i didn't use it earlier.
Hehe back to watching skins!
Effy and Freddy are so so so so so so so so hot!
x
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[14 Sep 2009|08:50pm] |
Shaz gave me her notebook and OMG i LOVE IT ahahahaha and like so exciting, comes with a matching pencil! ahahaha
oh and guess what, I AM JOBLESS AGAIN!!!
KNOW WHY????!!!!
Today the woman called to confirm my training time (for work) and then after like 5mins of talking... she said,
oh just a quick check. Will u be having any committments in the month of december?
Im like... er yeah. a holiday. and theyre like, we dont allow our staff to go on holidays during december and thats why we're hiring now, we'd like them to work it through.
SO BASICALLY, she told me to contact her next year (since im nt gg be coming back to sgp during breaks next year) for the job.
GREAT! WHAT THE HELL DO I DO NOW!!! ZZZ
And then Shaz gave me a lift from school to her old workplace cos i was like really annoyed at having lost a job i had not even started.... and when we went there they were having a staff meeting and asked us to come back some other time.
GRR.
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